welcome my new day
my new love
new feeling
what I forgot in the meantime
not important
do I remember cuz I dont exist
time either
noone exists

nothing ever happened
have to learn all over again

I forgot how to kiss
forgot how to miss
forgot myself

yourself, everyone else

you believed your things
I believed mine as well

...there is no meaning in staying dependant on someone, who does not want  to admit he needs us and let us suffer...

oh no
again the void
I was so small
to know
don´t have the right source

oh I wish I met you  this way for the first time

but everyone must have known you were there


oh I had all the time in the world
not anymore
cuz you´re the only thing I know

oh you don´t answer
perhaps you don´t wanna lie
like a coward
don´t tell anyone
I am very shy
and your love is tricky so so
that I never know
as for the first time
as for the last time

wish someone was crazy about me
once for a while for the moment that could last more than a moment
I could relax on you dear
or whatever
that appears true to me
you are so cold
and the only one I want

to the edge
you hardly touch the edge
you are so frightened to..

someone has already jumped over

so our love didn´t last my dear
what shall we do
so what
it happens every day
have a look
there is a new beginning

but still our love did not really survive my love
so what my dear
there are other things waiting for Me

but there was a love once
and it died
in between your fingers it escaped
so what love
find someone else to love and don´t bother me with stupid questions

we may be disappointed now and then
of what I´d expected and what you hadn´t
what you never planned
and planted
I exploited
You must be making fun of me only

if you are sad
where you go to heal
to things unreal
beautiful
surreal
a dream

...
the lost things something we lost on a way there and over
we must have known
there is always someone  missing us

I just wanted to find the real life
don´t be angry with me I was dying
now on for the time being
I need some rest
life is empty it doesn´t say a word to me
it bores me , drags me to death , the feeling

the feeling, a lost one I love 
and where are you
where do you live
what do you do
still everyone´s high-spirit-like?
still fun?
and cool?

no it is cold
I have never felt so alone..
so empty so insecure...
 

...so all we do is being unhappy about the things you know
going either way there is the one that always better is
and noone there is
noone exists
and then you recall one of the familiar voices
and there is no need to receive  the message anymore
because we know
we probably always did
and forbid

and forgot

became lost

in the meantime
 looking for it and there was nothing for us to be found
on the ground and it was there and we didn´t see it
I haven´t seen such a beaty
and I haven´t heard such a beautiful  music
I haven´t felt a touch as gentle  as this
I haven´t tasted a mouth like this
but for sure I have
for sure I had
the life has never been empty

feel so old and so alone
not to go on in this with this in me anymore
I am ashamed and the only one to blame
to spoil it all
and all decisions I made
have made me go down the drain
where I belong
and I flush and I hiss
to all the piss
and I´m finished and I´m done
it´s never been that right precise
and finally I end in the very first narrow land
and I can hate which is to my surprise
in the invetable sacrifice
to admit that I hate what I created out of myself...

now it does not matter anymore
if we start or end
or we end up on the dead end as it usually happens
I have no space in my heart
I will come back to you
when I am most alone and  hurting
and then I realize there is no meaning
a bit unfortunate
for a kind like me
I don ´t have anything
I am alone
I accept I will not be nosy this time
I only don´t know what or why
If I was forced to this
if there was a chance and I passed it
you will come back too
when you are most alone too
when you are most likely too
we will kill the fire
there is none
we are completely lost
we have lost
you never know what the beginning tasted like
that is the saddest part the happiest one
we will come back , come back to ...

there has never been a fire
no strenght
Im lost
if there is a short message
show me
noone knows
you hate me
you never remember
what you said
I give a shit
this oblivion is a sentence to me
noone is here anymore
I want to recall you the way you started ..
and you made an effort .and the way ..you started the fire....