Ambivalence

I try to rememeber
I recall
but as the time floats
and all the days
it feels harder and harder to see your face

I didn´t know you at all
I was looking for you
I saw you
I´d known  you for ages
You came
You found me
I saw you
It was a long time ago

the world is full of beautiful things
I think that all of us could be happy as kings

Goodbye
you call me as a soldier
while you´re looking for the colours that I lost
and you forgot to blow the whistle
I forgive you
sun´s down remember myself now
remember me and all the foam
and in next few moments the pain is gone...

every word seems to feel like you don´t care

it is necessary to die
but it is a must to live and play with all cards


I write with the passion
describing this stupid moment
I am yours
I paint the air
I cry the light
of enormous delight
I am yours
I am not mine
I forgot my name
I am insane
I starve to the thirst
and I enter this nothing knowing all
but became you wanting more

you can only dance because your heart is bleeding
slightly wounded am I
of these I am
and when love is gone you realize you´d done very little

tell me where you´re heading
still you are somewhere else

I was in love with every detail
thought it was the end of nothing
temporary madness

in my lonely night the dreams are floating in the air
in my room they all can see you there
I see you too
and you are lonely too

I´m waiting ,waiting in the shades
the hope is dying from the deep
so I wait and  I shall not keep
a single rememberance of thee